Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Ande turns 5





Today is Anderson's fifth birthday, so of course I'm feeling all nostalgic. I drove by the apartment that we lived in when he was born the other day. In my mind, I tried to put myself back in that time in place. I remember his first year of life, in our tiny but home-y apartment, so vividly and tenderly.

Anderson made me a mom. Being his mom has taught me so much about parenthood. He is our parenting guinea pig and he is so so patient with us in the process.

There are still trying moments, but for the most part I am loving this stage of his life so much! Anderson is my buddy. My best friend. My helper and my comforter. He has become the most amazing big brother. I trust him. He is aware of Milo and his needs and he loves to entertain and teach him. He has boundless energy and is always willing to jump up and grab a diaper or keep Milo from running into the street. He has this enormous thirst for learning and wants to know how everything in the world works. Literally everything.

The other day, I had the opportunity to run a few errands with just him and I realized how much I enjoy his company. He kept doing silly things to get me to laugh, and as we walked around the store he reached up to hold my hand.

I love this boy!

Happy birthday dear Ande!

Friday, April 11, 2014

Frinstagram {my favorite time of day}

...this week's instagram photos on Friday...



The boy's favorite time of day is when their daddy gets home from work. How can I tell? Well... they sit out in the driveway just waiting for that oh-so-familiar white pickup truck to turn the corner and come chugging down the street. When they finally see it, they squeal with delight and immediately start asking him for gum. Once they get inside, it's an all out wrestle fest on the living room floor. There's usually lots of laughing. The laughing almost inevitably turns into crying but yet, they still beg for more. 

Now, this doesn't mean they don't love wrestling with me. They definitely try to. If ever I sit or lay down on the floor, there's some magnetic force that draws them to me. They see me on their level and they immediately pounce. I just don't dish it back to them. I told them, "mommy doesn't wrestle, she snuggles."

Which brings me to my favorite time of day. There's something about a good long nap that makes a baby's skin so warm and soft. They smile as I walk into the room (and sometimes pull the covers over their noses saying, "i'm hidin' mom"). I pick them up and their little fuzzy heads rest on my shoulder. Sometimes their tiny hands wrap about my neck and I become a puddle on the floor. We come into my room and sit on the bed where Ande is waiting, eager to show off his latest lego creation. They sit with me, melting into my lap, and I smother them with whispers and kisses.

Those are the moments that happen every.single.day, no matter how cranky or crazy or fun the morning was. It's like a fresh start in the middle of the day. Those are my favorite moments. Those are the ones I cherish.

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

my nursing story


I really wish someone had told me, back when I was a first time mom, that nursing doesn't necessarily come easy. I didn't think twice about it because it seemed so natural. If my body automatically knows how to product milk, then my baby will naturally know how to drink it, right!? I also got lucky with my first, dear Ande - my dream baby. He ate well, slept well, and hardly cried. 


When Owen came along, I thought I had this parenting thing in the bag, which is why I took it so hard when things didn't go as smoothly. Nursing with Owen was like trying to walk on water. It just wasn't happening. I still don't really know why it didn't work. It just didn't. And I was miserable. I thought I had failed him. And to be completely honest, it really did make the bonding process a little different. Slower even. It all turned out fine in the end. He is healthy, smart, happy, and we do have a close bond now. I just wish someone had warned me early on that it's not always easy. Maybe I would've had more perseverance to keep trying with Owen if I had been ready for the trial. 


And then came Milo. His birth was so easy and smooth. I don't really know why, but I felt so at ease throughout his newborn phase. Maybe that was the reason that he and I really got into a groove. He was my best nurser yet...maybe a little too good. I had planned to stop nursing when he was one and when the time came, I could tell he was ready. But boy was I not ready. Milo took the transition to no nursing with such ease. He didn't seem phased by it at all, but I was feeling all kinds of sad. What if he doesn't love me as much now? 

It has been about 2 months now since I weaned Milo and I still miss it on occasion. After seeing a friend nursing at church one week, I thought...maybe I could start up nursing again!? But then I realized that I was maybe a little bit crazy. 

Anyways...I guess I don't really have a point in all this rambling. I just wanted to record my feelings about it all. I have loved nursing my babies, but I also know first hand that it doesn't always go the way you've planned. It is hard. But either way, as long as you are loving them, they will have all they need.

Monday, April 7, 2014

yarn love {sweet and girly crochet and knitted finds}

My eye has been drawn to a lot of bright girly colors lately (think: pinks, oranges, yellows, bright blues, etc).
I bought some yarn in really fun shades of coral and pink a couple weeks ago and have yet to find the perfect project for them.

I am still undecided, but here are some colorful and bright ideas that have helped inspire me...

Crochet Cushion Pattern Pilow Flower PDF 14"x14" Pillow Mustard Scandinavian Nordic Retro
Aside from it being my favorite color, I just love the design of this pillow by Little Doolally. Color work and intricate designs are not as common in crochet, so this sweet flower really caught my eye!

SS14 babyDEGEN diaper cover
I think these little knit bloomers speak for themselves. I mean, they are adorbs!
Knit by Baby Degen.

Springy Grid Raglan
I got sucked in to Baby Degen's site once I found that diaper cover. Don't you just love the orange and the design in this little Raglan Sweater?

Pink bubbles - crochet coin purse
I have never used a coin purse before and never really saw much purpose to them...but this adorable pink bubble crochet purse is definitely cute enough to change my mind!


What colors/designs are you loving lately? I am always on the hunt for cute boy designs, but my eye is naturally drawn to the girly stuff!

Friday, April 4, 2014

Frinstagram {spring in full bloom}

...this week's instagram photos on Friday...








Every year spring comes and goes and I never get any good pictures of all the gorgeous flowering trees. This year, I got the pics and I am so glad! I put one of them as the background on my phone and now I am happy every time I turn it on!

This week I definitely needed that extra dose of happy since Milo and I were pretty sick. Mom's don't really get "sick days" so that kinda stinks. Thankfully, it's the weekend so, hoorah!

Also, we had Leah (also on fb here) take our annual family pictures last night and they are going - to - be - awesome! I can't wait to see them! We had the photos taken at the NC State Arboretum. Seriously the coolest place ever. If you live around here, and you haven't been, you should definitely go explore! Take a picnic...I promise you'll love it!

Have a great weekend!